Parenthoods Ups and Downs
Today I sit at work feeling beyond tired. My little Daniel who has never been a good sleeper was up again last night at 3am. He did not go back to sleep as he sometimes does. This has had a knock on effect on my whole day. I still have to get up, do the school run, go to work, cook and sort out things for tomorrow. Dan was so tired I had to fetch him from Nursery early which impacted on my day heavily. On days like these it is easy to feel as if parenting is such hard work as every niggle or moan my kids make is magnified by feeling tired.
But parenting is such time of contrasts. Just yesterday I was brimming with pride as both my boys learned to ride their bikes. Tom took his fairy wheels off his bike, and after a few goes he was off on his own, not even looking back. Dan pressed the pedals on his bike for the first time and powered his 3 wheeler on his own. I must have taken 100 photo’s and quickly sent off emails and posted them on the internet showing everyone who cares what genius children I have.
Thankfully the joys far out way the down times. Feeling like I do today I could easily just crawl into bed and stay there, but instead I am planning on getting those bikes out again and giving my boys a chance to show off their new skills again. No matter how sleepy I am, I know that the joy of watching them is coming and it makes it all worthwhile.
Does anyone else have these kind of days? I want to hear about them.
Yes, I think it is absolutely normal to feel that way. I also think if any mother says she doesn’t, she’s not being completely honest with herself. I love my baby girl to bits! But said to my one friend the other day, that as horrible as it may sound, I wish I could give her to my mom for a weekend, get some sleeping pills (so I won’t know she’s not there) and just sleep for a whole weekend! But EVERY morning we wake up, doesn’t matter what a terrible night we had, my beautiful baby girl, Caylia smiles at me! That’s worth more than a lifetime’s sleep!