My baby’s birthday
Five years ago with two toddlers in tow I was asked whether I was having anymore babies. I replied that as much as I was desperate for another baby, Philip was not having any more so I was sadly not going to have another baby. The wise personwho had asked turned to me and said that while those yearnings existed, I would not settle until I had another baby. I was not sure because I thought maybe I was just a terminally broody person who would always want another and another baby.
A few months later Philip changed his mind and sure enough I was preggy with a little one who I called “my bonus baby” because she was the baby I yearned for but thought I would not have.
On the 23rd April 2005, little Emily Faith Faure appeared to the world. She arrive not as the other two did but by an emergacy cesarean section. She had relfux and did not sleep through until well into her first year and she has a will of steel. I adore her and have been so blessed by her little life.
Em has taught me more lessons than almost anyone else. She is precious beyond words and is my sunshine girl. She also proved the wise person right: The week after she was born, I knew I was finished. I no longer feel broody. I love babies so much and love holding the little ones who I see in my practise. But my baby days are done.
Em turned four last week and this blond headed bundle of life teaches me new lessons each day!
Hi Meg
A very happy birthday to baby Emily. Well Big girl now at 4 years.
I know what you mean about yearning for another baby. I know I have space in my life for 1 more and I still brood over other people’s babies and tear up when I hold them.
Given the near tragic events at both my children’s births we have made the logical decision that we should not have any more children. For my safety and for the sake of the baby, it is just not worth the risk. Also, living abroad away from Family support is difficult so 2 children makes mores sense.
The decision is logical… but the emotions are still strong. As Daniel gets older I keep thinking back to him as a new born and long to have that again.
I wonder if the yearning will ever go away?
I dont think I would ever mind having another baby, as I love children so much. The only thing that is a constant nagging at the back of my head is whether I will treat the new baby the way I do with my first born? Will I love my 2nd child any less than I do my first born? In order to prevent all these imaginary problems, I think I will rather savour,enjoy and treasure what I have now before thinking of adding to the family as its so much work!
I always look in awe at how Meg can juggle OT,running a business,writing books,being a wife and mother!
Maybe one day Ill be there too, but at the moment Im content with my 7 month old baby.
Imaan